Steam cleaning lunatic?

I've always thought of myself as a better than average person (yeah...I know, maybe that sounds sorta conceited)...one that cares so deeply for others that I often neglect myself...but sometimes I look back at my life & see things that were so selfish I'm ashamed...things that make me wonder if I'm really just some psychotic crazy lunatic trying to live a false life...maybe I'm not such a good person.   I don't want to grow old, look back & have regrets so I take chances I don't always believe in.  I am a strange combination of impulsive & cautious.  Don't really remember where I was going with all this other than thinking I might be crazy.  Okay...back to steam cleaning the carpets. 

It's all gonna be okay.

I struggle every day.  For a very long time I've been trying to claw my way to okay.  It's been hard, can't say it wasn't.  But for the 1st time in a long time, I'm finally comfortable with my life.  I can finally see that light at the end of this tunnel & it's an amazing feeling.